It's No-Ones Fault But My Own..

But I am so bored/angry/tired/frustrated/disappointed at the moment..

I don't know what to do.. I feel like I'm in a state of limbo..

I feel very blah.. Like I'm in a rut or something..

How boring of me..

I could be cleaning my room..

I could be doing essays and pieces of coursework..

I could be creating new and interesting ways to use highlighters..

I could resurrect the dinosaurs and make them my army in the battle against evil pirates..

But I'm not doing any of those things.. *SIGH*

I'm doing nothing..

And because I'm doing nothing my mind is moving on to random and ridiculous things like this..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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Leave Me Alone.. I'm Lonely..

ALONE..! ... I'm lonely..

There are few people in my life that I couldn't imagine living without..

Some of them know who they are, others don't..

[And the ones who don't I probably don't plan on telling them anytime soon..]

The thing is that this set list of people can change at any moment..

[Therefore it's not really set at all, is it?]

Someone who [this time last year] I couldn't even think of being without, is now on my list of 'Thank Gosh You're Gone, Don't Come Back To Soon'..

But to be fair me having this change of heart was actually based on a change of circumstance and me having a sudden realisation..

That realisation you ask? Well it's simple, really..

I realised that this other person needed me a whole lot more than I needed them..

Now don't get me wrong, I've stayed by them through thick and thin..

But when you have a realisation like this, you don't feel tied to the relationship.. [You're not tied down..]

You don't feel like you need to be there, you're there through choice and use of your own will..

When you have a realisation like this, everything becomes more real..

I wonder.. Are there people who you couldn't live without or maybe wished you lived without..?

It's a weird thing that I have going with me.. Sometimes I love to be surrounded by everyone and anyone..

Others I just wanna sit with the people who I can just sit and relax with..

But then again, that's not my choice, is it?

Need.

I wonder, is it a need that I have? And need to have people around me..

A need to be secluded from all other life forms..

A need to have things changing all the time..

A need to constantly be entertain or doing something..

Because I don't feel needy.

I mean I'd be fine all by myself, wouldn't I?

Final Thought[s]:

What does it take for you to tell someone that you need them..?

And do you really need them at all, or is it a work of the brain..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

x

So I Did A Bit More Customising..

And I added a few pictures..

You may have noticed.. Or not..?

I just wanted this thing to be a bit more personal, y'know..?

So I added a few pictures..

Then I got annoyed cause I couldn't put them where I wanted to..

So I just left them how they were..

What do you think..?

I like it..

Until I get bored again.. And 'personalise' it a bit more..

:D

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

xx

'..Well This Is Awkward.'

'It wasn't until you just said that..!'

¬_¬

This is one of the reoccurring conversations that go on between me and my friends..

But even when they're not there creating awkward moments.. I seem to be stumbling into them..

For example, it's awkward when:

Someone who you haven't spoken to in a while, and didn't plan on speaking to for quite a while.. For example, an ex.. Sparks up a conversation..

It also makes it awkward when you and said ex didn't end well and they ask if you're still holding a 'grudge'..

*Cue the Awkward Turtle hands..!*

I feel that as long as I keep thinking about positive things, then this awkward situation won't affect me..

How wrong could I be..?

I mean, I'm blogging at 3:16 in the AM.. And why, because I stayed up a little longer to see where this awkward situation would take me..

And, as you can see, it took me to rambling at ungodly hours.. While, I'm sure, I'm making no sense..

Goodnight Bloggers..!

Thank You Mother Nature..

For screwing me over MULTIPLE times this week.. >__<

I'm just saying TOM visit's at the wrong times.. BOTHER!!

I think this aimed mainly at girls, but still....

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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