I thought I'd put this on here because I have a feeling that you'll see it and know it's about you.. And that's what I want... I guess.

You avoided me.

You didn't tell me why. You just did it.

That hurt like fuck.

I thought we were friends. I thought we were close.

I thought we were better than that.

Now you wanna talk to me?

Does it seem easy to you? Walking out and then walking back in?

Peh!

Just so you know, I don't blame myself anymore.

I don't think it's my fault that we're not how we used to be.

I want us to go back to how we were, but I'm not sure if we ever can.

Rawr.

Korein

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Colour Me Brown, Because I'm Actually Brown..

'I'd Rather Be Hated For Who I Am, Than Loved For Who I Am Not.'

Probably one of my favorite quotes of all time..

It's one that I [attempt] to live by everyday..

Final Thought:

Live your life, cause it's no-one else's.. Duhh..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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Something You Might Like To See..

This is something that was originally posted on http://1000awesomethings.com/ and I wanted to share it..

As soon as I read this it automatically made me happy..

601 Getting through it

That was a tough one.

Come on in and stop for a second to shake your head, dust yourself off, and look back at how far you’ve come.

Sure, it’s been a long year. Some crushing lows slapped you and smacked you around. There were times your heart dipped and you squinted back tears while your stomach squeezed so tightly you couldn’t sleep. There were moments you walked around in a glossy-eyeball daze — when loved ones hurt, friends didn’t stay, or someone dear to your heart slowly drifted away.

Sleepless nights, stressful nights, with teething babies, slurring customers, bad bosses, bickering boyfriends, or blank computer screens. You were feeling and you were dealing and you were reeling and you were healing.

But as you walked your hard path down your long and bumpy road some little drops of confidence dripped like coffee into your head and into your heart. As you stumbled and got back up a quiet inner strength slowly seeped into your bones. And as you climbed over obstacles set in your way some relaxed satisfaction and growing self-awareness glimmered like bright lights at the bottom of your stomach.

Yes, this year changed you and grew you in so many ways you don’t even feel or notice yet. As you struggled you empathized, as you slipped you understood, as you worked you earned…

… as you looked you learned

… … as you dared you grew

… … … and as you jumped you flew.

Your dreams are still focusing and your passion is growing. Your energy is still bubbling and your story keeps going.

You’ve been through so much and gaineda year’s supply of experience along the way. You’re stronger than you were last year and stronger than you realize. Sure, there were times you bent, but you definitely didn’t break. There were times you caved, but you definitely didn’t flake.

Listen up: you got bigger, you got better, and you got the scars to prove it.

So stop for a second today to smile and look back at everything you’ve done this year… everything you’ve seen… everywhere you’ve been…

You’ve taken more illegal naps and had more blurry-eyed late nights.

You’ve danced to more wedding songs and smiled at more beautiful sights.

You’ve seen more scorching sunsets and heard more head-bopping songs.

You’ve tripped a few times, but baby, you kept rolling right along.

Yes, you’ve hugged more old friends and kissed some brand new pretty faces.

You’ve cheered more on the sidelines and visited some brand new pretty places.

You tasted more meals, you got more deals, and you’ve sniffed more flower blossoms.

And you made it all the way through this year because you’re so completely

AWESOME!

To see the original post click here..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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...In The Pursuit Of Happiness.

Today, I didn't do much.. I showered..

And I went to the library.. Did some work..

Nothing overly major... Or so I thought..

Today I did nothing overly major, except for have a revelation..

What was this revelation, I hear you ask..

Well I'll tell you what this revelation was.. Here it goes..

'Work Hard And You Will Succeed..'

There.. Yep, that's it.. Easy, right? Right!

So now, keeping this in mind, I was thinking about all of the things that bring me down..

All of the things in my life that are getting a little on top of me at the moment..

Every little thought that's run through my head and made me sad.. [ :( ]

And I thought, to be completely honest with you, I thought:

"Fuck It! What's the point in being sad about things.. Things that are only going to make me unhappy to think about? Why not think positively? Why not do something about them? Why not just change them? [Or at least change my view on them..]"

And so that's what I'm doing.. I'm changing my view on all the bad things that are happening at the moment..

And, although I've only been doing it for a few hours, I'm feeling happier already..

Positive Lifestyle Here I Come..!

PEACE..

JustSomeGirl..

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Revelation..

People who like being busy and thrive on having lots to do..

Are people who like to complain.. A lot.. And have good reason to..

I should know, I am one..

The Tango..

Why is it that the people I want to leave me alone, are always popping up..?

And yet, the people I desperately want to be with, never pay any attention..?

This is a phenomenon that I just don't understand..

I am throughly confused..

And I'd like to point out, that this is not a cry for attention..

Not a 'look at me I am so loved' thing..

This is a 'why is this situation so wrong..?' Sort of thing..

This is starting to be come an obsession..

This need to be noticed and want to be ignored at the same time..

You may be wondering why I titled this blog 'The Tango..' Well I'll tell you why..

There is a song by Shakira called 'Objection- Tango'..

And not only the song but also the dance in the beginning, they both basically put how I'm feeling at the moment to music..

Just needed to get that off my chest.. *Phew*

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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Friends With Benefits..

We all know what this means.. If not click here..

I Am Not A Friend With Benefits..

Got that..? Good.

I don't really like this idea.. Unless I'm on the good end of it..

And that means being the one who doesn't have feelings for the other person..

But I'm rarely on that end, as I am me, and being me I always get attached..

Final Thought:

I fear that I'm his friend with benefits.. Am I..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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Okay.. So It's No Longer '09..

We're now heading into 2010.. Or 'Twenty-Ten' as the cool kids are calling it..

New years resolutions..? Don't have any..

Why..? Because instead of changing myself on the first day of a new year.. [Just to probably end up not keeping the changes I've made..]

I decided, a few months ago, what I wanna change..

And no I'm not telling you.. Sorry dudes..

That is all for my first 2010 rambling..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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It's No-Ones Fault But My Own..

But I am so bored/angry/tired/frustrated/disappointed at the moment..

I don't know what to do.. I feel like I'm in a state of limbo..

I feel very blah.. Like I'm in a rut or something..

How boring of me..

I could be cleaning my room..

I could be doing essays and pieces of coursework..

I could be creating new and interesting ways to use highlighters..

I could resurrect the dinosaurs and make them my army in the battle against evil pirates..

But I'm not doing any of those things.. *SIGH*

I'm doing nothing..

And because I'm doing nothing my mind is moving on to random and ridiculous things like this..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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Leave Me Alone.. I'm Lonely..

ALONE..! ... I'm lonely..

There are few people in my life that I couldn't imagine living without..

Some of them know who they are, others don't..

[And the ones who don't I probably don't plan on telling them anytime soon..]

The thing is that this set list of people can change at any moment..

[Therefore it's not really set at all, is it?]

Someone who [this time last year] I couldn't even think of being without, is now on my list of 'Thank Gosh You're Gone, Don't Come Back To Soon'..

But to be fair me having this change of heart was actually based on a change of circumstance and me having a sudden realisation..

That realisation you ask? Well it's simple, really..

I realised that this other person needed me a whole lot more than I needed them..

Now don't get me wrong, I've stayed by them through thick and thin..

But when you have a realisation like this, you don't feel tied to the relationship.. [You're not tied down..]

You don't feel like you need to be there, you're there through choice and use of your own will..

When you have a realisation like this, everything becomes more real..

I wonder.. Are there people who you couldn't live without or maybe wished you lived without..?

It's a weird thing that I have going with me.. Sometimes I love to be surrounded by everyone and anyone..

Others I just wanna sit with the people who I can just sit and relax with..

But then again, that's not my choice, is it?

Need.

I wonder, is it a need that I have? And need to have people around me..

A need to be secluded from all other life forms..

A need to have things changing all the time..

A need to constantly be entertain or doing something..

Because I don't feel needy.

I mean I'd be fine all by myself, wouldn't I?

Final Thought[s]:

What does it take for you to tell someone that you need them..?

And do you really need them at all, or is it a work of the brain..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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So I Did A Bit More Customising..

And I added a few pictures..

You may have noticed.. Or not..?

I just wanted this thing to be a bit more personal, y'know..?

So I added a few pictures..

Then I got annoyed cause I couldn't put them where I wanted to..

So I just left them how they were..

What do you think..?

I like it..

Until I get bored again.. And 'personalise' it a bit more..

:D

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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'..Well This Is Awkward.'

'It wasn't until you just said that..!'

¬_¬

This is one of the reoccurring conversations that go on between me and my friends..

But even when they're not there creating awkward moments.. I seem to be stumbling into them..

For example, it's awkward when:

Someone who you haven't spoken to in a while, and didn't plan on speaking to for quite a while.. For example, an ex.. Sparks up a conversation..

It also makes it awkward when you and said ex didn't end well and they ask if you're still holding a 'grudge'..

*Cue the Awkward Turtle hands..!*

I feel that as long as I keep thinking about positive things, then this awkward situation won't affect me..

How wrong could I be..?

I mean, I'm blogging at 3:16 in the AM.. And why, because I stayed up a little longer to see where this awkward situation would take me..

And, as you can see, it took me to rambling at ungodly hours.. While, I'm sure, I'm making no sense..

Goodnight Bloggers..!

Thank You Mother Nature..

For screwing me over MULTIPLE times this week.. >__<

I'm just saying TOM visit's at the wrong times.. BOTHER!!

I think this aimed mainly at girls, but still....

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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I Have A Secret..

But I Can't Tell You What It Is..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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BITCH!

Woah, yes you are.. Yes you are..

Alone, I know you are.. You know you are..

I Can Tell You A Thing Or Two, Yeah..

Let me tell you a thing or two..

I know where I'm going.. [And I know where I'm from..]

And I know who I am..

Yeah, it took me like 16 years to figure this out.. But I did it..

And that's more than I can say for SOME people..

People who act like they know who they are, but are really just pretending..

I know tomorrow I'll probably change.. And when I'm 20 I'll probably be someone different..

But for now, I know who I am.. And I'm happy [ish]..

I wish that my life was like The Lazer Collection..

Except without the weird guy at the end..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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I Don't Know Much..

And at nearly 1 am, I'm sure that what I do know is a little fuzzy..

But I'm gonna try and tell you a few things I know..

I know that Taylor Swift needs to stop singing catchy songs about things that aren't real and will never happen..

Some would say she's lying to every teenage girl who believes the songs she writes down, sings out..

Some would interrupt her and tell her Beyonce's video was much better..

Some would just sing along and not think about her music in a deeper way..

Some would say I'm babling about an issue that's just a lost cause.. I dunno..

Just listen..

All I'm saying is Romeo doesn't come and sweep you off your feet..

And the guy you've loved forever.. Won't write 'I Love You' on paper.. You're lucky even he even says it to you..

I don't know, maybe I'm being to cynical.. But I just feel there should be some song that are more realistic..

Like 'Yeah, maybe he doesn't love you.. But fuck him.. There will be someone else.. Maybe not right now.. But eventually.. Just chill for a second.. Things will be okay.. They're not even as bad as you think..'

Okay so it's not that catchy but I'm not a lyricist.. *Shrugs*

I know that when you have a hole in your tooth..

It won't hurt until your dentist pokes around a little..

And then it kills like an angry housewife with an abusive partner in a trailer park..

Yeah, that much pain..

I also know that when you attempt to be strong and not take any painkillers..

The pain will keep you awake and refuse to let you rest until you drug yourself up..

[And that the pain is much worse when TOM is here..]

I know that what I like.. And I know what I don't like..

I don't like tomatoes, getting up early, coursework and some people..

I like chocolate, sexy things, musicals and some people..

[Just to name a few..]

I'll probably create a blog saying what I like.. Because I know what I like..

And I know what I don't like..

I guess I'm just too sure of myself.. That I am sure of..

I know I treat people the way I'd like to be treated.. But I've noticed that that rarely happens..

I guess I'm just not good enough to deserve something equal..

Or people just don't know I do this.. And they just don't get it..

I guess that's something I should have known..

I know that things happen in their own time..

This I've known for sometime, but I didn't really realise it until my friend told me today..

She told me not to rush things, but instead just let them happen naturally..

Which is funny because someone else who is close to me told me not to rush things..

They told me that rushing things makes things complicated..

And I started thinking rushing is just one letter away from pushing..

And no-one wants to be pushed..

......

Ahahaha.. Don't you think that's really funny..?

...

Oh sorry, I haven't told you the joke..

Do you want to know the joke..?

I let you in on it.. It'll be our private joke..

Talking about not pushing things, here as I'm sitting on my bed..

Guess what song comes on..? I'll tell you what song comes on..

She's The One by Robbie Williams..

[Listen here if you don't know it..]

It's actually a really beautiful song..

Just the timing is quite depressing..

Final Thought:

Is there a somebody for everybody..?

And if so, when and how will I find this somebody..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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I Sometimes Question...

Why am I sprucing up my blog [if you will] when I have a presentation due tomorrow that I need to finish..

And I'm sure I also have an essay, that I haven't even started..

I'll tell you why.. My friend Jubb [check her out] has a link on her blog to this site..

Leelou Blogs.. Which does blog layout and such for free..

Now seeing my friends blog made me want to do something nice to mine..

So it's not such an eyesore..

And I have.. Did you notice the change..?

And more will come soon, I'm just too tired to do it now..

So, yeah, tell me what you think..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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'There's A Hole Where Your Soul Should Be..'

The title is lyrics from Lily Allen's song 'Fuck You Very Much' listen here:

Sorry, I know it's been a while.. And I know you don't wait for these updates..

But I still feel a little bad for not updating for so long..

Let's get you up to date of the happenings of my life..

I've been to a few parties.. [Happy Birthday to everyone who's had one since..]

One where I had to dress up..

Which [if you know me] is not such a bad thing.. Sort of like asking a panda to be black and white.. (Y)

I've also been forced to join BTEC Performing Arts.. Which means I'm now technically doing 5 A-Levels..

I could just about handle 3 and they're making me do five..!

I also played at Rocktober.. It was amazement beyond my life..

My boys did brilliantly.. [Yes, I did just say 'my boys' I'm very possessive, deal with it..]

Everyone did amazing.. I'm so happy.. Happy.. Happy.. Happy.. :D

[Okay, we get it.. You're happy..]

I went to see The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

Official website: www.doctorparnassus.com

Here's the trailer:

Which I'm gonna review in another blog.. [Keep your eyes peeled for that one..]

I also saw Couple's Retreat

Official website: http://www.couplesretreatmovie.com/#/home

Here's the trailer:

And I'll also review this in a different blog..

I don't know what else I've been doing to be honest.. Just keeping up with general life, I guess..

How have you all been..? Anything interesting happen to you lately..?

Peace

JustSomeGirl

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Soon To Be Obese.. Alice In Wonderland..

At the moment I'm watching a version of Alice in Wonderland..

Filmed with all real people.. Like Whoopi Goldberg.. [As the cheshire cat..]

And anyways, I noticed that Alice is so dumb it's unrealistic..

And although I love the story/book/Disney film..

I can't help but think we're sending the wrong message to our children..

[Not like I have any, but still..]

Firstly, she is ALWAYS eating.. Non-stop!

She just picks things up and eats them..

Not knowing where they came from or what's in them..

For all she know they could be poisonous!

Second, she's ALWAYS eating..

She's the reason for childhood obesity..

Little children see her eating and nothing about her changing..

And they believe they can do it themselves..

Third, she listens to everyone and does whatever they say..

A white rabbit tells her to go to his house.. AND SHE DOES..

This is what our children are learning.. MADNESS!!

Teaching our children to talk things from strangers and pick things up in the street..

Tut tut.. Shame on you Alice..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl

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