It's No-Ones Fault But My Own..

But I am so bored/angry/tired/frustrated/disappointed at the moment..

I don't know what to do.. I feel like I'm in a state of limbo..

I feel very blah.. Like I'm in a rut or something..

How boring of me..

I could be cleaning my room..

I could be doing essays and pieces of coursework..

I could be creating new and interesting ways to use highlighters..

I could resurrect the dinosaurs and make them my army in the battle against evil pirates..

But I'm not doing any of those things.. *SIGH*

I'm doing nothing..

And because I'm doing nothing my mind is moving on to random and ridiculous things like this..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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Leave Me Alone.. I'm Lonely..

ALONE..! ... I'm lonely..

There are few people in my life that I couldn't imagine living without..

Some of them know who they are, others don't..

[And the ones who don't I probably don't plan on telling them anytime soon..]

The thing is that this set list of people can change at any moment..

[Therefore it's not really set at all, is it?]

Someone who [this time last year] I couldn't even think of being without, is now on my list of 'Thank Gosh You're Gone, Don't Come Back To Soon'..

But to be fair me having this change of heart was actually based on a change of circumstance and me having a sudden realisation..

That realisation you ask? Well it's simple, really..

I realised that this other person needed me a whole lot more than I needed them..

Now don't get me wrong, I've stayed by them through thick and thin..

But when you have a realisation like this, you don't feel tied to the relationship.. [You're not tied down..]

You don't feel like you need to be there, you're there through choice and use of your own will..

When you have a realisation like this, everything becomes more real..

I wonder.. Are there people who you couldn't live without or maybe wished you lived without..?

It's a weird thing that I have going with me.. Sometimes I love to be surrounded by everyone and anyone..

Others I just wanna sit with the people who I can just sit and relax with..

But then again, that's not my choice, is it?

Need.

I wonder, is it a need that I have? And need to have people around me..

A need to be secluded from all other life forms..

A need to have things changing all the time..

A need to constantly be entertain or doing something..

Because I don't feel needy.

I mean I'd be fine all by myself, wouldn't I?

Final Thought[s]:

What does it take for you to tell someone that you need them..?

And do you really need them at all, or is it a work of the brain..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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So I Did A Bit More Customising..

And I added a few pictures..

You may have noticed.. Or not..?

I just wanted this thing to be a bit more personal, y'know..?

So I added a few pictures..

Then I got annoyed cause I couldn't put them where I wanted to..

So I just left them how they were..

What do you think..?

I like it..

Until I get bored again.. And 'personalise' it a bit more..

:D

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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'..Well This Is Awkward.'

'It wasn't until you just said that..!'

¬_¬

This is one of the reoccurring conversations that go on between me and my friends..

But even when they're not there creating awkward moments.. I seem to be stumbling into them..

For example, it's awkward when:

Someone who you haven't spoken to in a while, and didn't plan on speaking to for quite a while.. For example, an ex.. Sparks up a conversation..

It also makes it awkward when you and said ex didn't end well and they ask if you're still holding a 'grudge'..

*Cue the Awkward Turtle hands..!*

I feel that as long as I keep thinking about positive things, then this awkward situation won't affect me..

How wrong could I be..?

I mean, I'm blogging at 3:16 in the AM.. And why, because I stayed up a little longer to see where this awkward situation would take me..

And, as you can see, it took me to rambling at ungodly hours.. While, I'm sure, I'm making no sense..

Goodnight Bloggers..!

Thank You Mother Nature..

For screwing me over MULTIPLE times this week.. >__<

I'm just saying TOM visit's at the wrong times.. BOTHER!!

I think this aimed mainly at girls, but still....

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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I Have A Secret..

But I Can't Tell You What It Is..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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BITCH!

Woah, yes you are.. Yes you are..

Alone, I know you are.. You know you are..

I Can Tell You A Thing Or Two, Yeah..

Let me tell you a thing or two..

I know where I'm going.. [And I know where I'm from..]

And I know who I am..

Yeah, it took me like 16 years to figure this out.. But I did it..

And that's more than I can say for SOME people..

People who act like they know who they are, but are really just pretending..

I know tomorrow I'll probably change.. And when I'm 20 I'll probably be someone different..

But for now, I know who I am.. And I'm happy [ish]..

I wish that my life was like The Lazer Collection..

Except without the weird guy at the end..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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I Don't Know Much..

And at nearly 1 am, I'm sure that what I do know is a little fuzzy..

But I'm gonna try and tell you a few things I know..

I know that Taylor Swift needs to stop singing catchy songs about things that aren't real and will never happen..

Some would say she's lying to every teenage girl who believes the songs she writes down, sings out..

Some would interrupt her and tell her Beyonce's video was much better..

Some would just sing along and not think about her music in a deeper way..

Some would say I'm babling about an issue that's just a lost cause.. I dunno..

Just listen..

All I'm saying is Romeo doesn't come and sweep you off your feet..

And the guy you've loved forever.. Won't write 'I Love You' on paper.. You're lucky even he even says it to you..

I don't know, maybe I'm being to cynical.. But I just feel there should be some song that are more realistic..

Like 'Yeah, maybe he doesn't love you.. But fuck him.. There will be someone else.. Maybe not right now.. But eventually.. Just chill for a second.. Things will be okay.. They're not even as bad as you think..'

Okay so it's not that catchy but I'm not a lyricist.. *Shrugs*

I know that when you have a hole in your tooth..

It won't hurt until your dentist pokes around a little..

And then it kills like an angry housewife with an abusive partner in a trailer park..

Yeah, that much pain..

I also know that when you attempt to be strong and not take any painkillers..

The pain will keep you awake and refuse to let you rest until you drug yourself up..

[And that the pain is much worse when TOM is here..]

I know that what I like.. And I know what I don't like..

I don't like tomatoes, getting up early, coursework and some people..

I like chocolate, sexy things, musicals and some people..

[Just to name a few..]

I'll probably create a blog saying what I like.. Because I know what I like..

And I know what I don't like..

I guess I'm just too sure of myself.. That I am sure of..

I know I treat people the way I'd like to be treated.. But I've noticed that that rarely happens..

I guess I'm just not good enough to deserve something equal..

Or people just don't know I do this.. And they just don't get it..

I guess that's something I should have known..

I know that things happen in their own time..

This I've known for sometime, but I didn't really realise it until my friend told me today..

She told me not to rush things, but instead just let them happen naturally..

Which is funny because someone else who is close to me told me not to rush things..

They told me that rushing things makes things complicated..

And I started thinking rushing is just one letter away from pushing..

And no-one wants to be pushed..

......

Ahahaha.. Don't you think that's really funny..?

...

Oh sorry, I haven't told you the joke..

Do you want to know the joke..?

I let you in on it.. It'll be our private joke..

Talking about not pushing things, here as I'm sitting on my bed..

Guess what song comes on..? I'll tell you what song comes on..

She's The One by Robbie Williams..

[Listen here if you don't know it..]

It's actually a really beautiful song..

Just the timing is quite depressing..

Final Thought:

Is there a somebody for everybody..?

And if so, when and how will I find this somebody..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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I Sometimes Question...

Why am I sprucing up my blog [if you will] when I have a presentation due tomorrow that I need to finish..

And I'm sure I also have an essay, that I haven't even started..

I'll tell you why.. My friend Jubb [check her out] has a link on her blog to this site..

Leelou Blogs.. Which does blog layout and such for free..

Now seeing my friends blog made me want to do something nice to mine..

So it's not such an eyesore..

And I have.. Did you notice the change..?

And more will come soon, I'm just too tired to do it now..

So, yeah, tell me what you think..?

Peace..

JustSomeGirl..

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'There's A Hole Where Your Soul Should Be..'

The title is lyrics from Lily Allen's song 'Fuck You Very Much' listen here:

Sorry, I know it's been a while.. And I know you don't wait for these updates..

But I still feel a little bad for not updating for so long..

Let's get you up to date of the happenings of my life..

I've been to a few parties.. [Happy Birthday to everyone who's had one since..]

One where I had to dress up..

Which [if you know me] is not such a bad thing.. Sort of like asking a panda to be black and white.. (Y)

I've also been forced to join BTEC Performing Arts.. Which means I'm now technically doing 5 A-Levels..

I could just about handle 3 and they're making me do five..!

I also played at Rocktober.. It was amazement beyond my life..

My boys did brilliantly.. [Yes, I did just say 'my boys' I'm very possessive, deal with it..]

Everyone did amazing.. I'm so happy.. Happy.. Happy.. Happy.. :D

[Okay, we get it.. You're happy..]

I went to see The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

Official website: www.doctorparnassus.com

Here's the trailer:

Which I'm gonna review in another blog.. [Keep your eyes peeled for that one..]

I also saw Couple's Retreat

Official website: http://www.couplesretreatmovie.com/#/home

Here's the trailer:

And I'll also review this in a different blog..

I don't know what else I've been doing to be honest.. Just keeping up with general life, I guess..

How have you all been..? Anything interesting happen to you lately..?

Peace

JustSomeGirl

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Soon To Be Obese.. Alice In Wonderland..

At the moment I'm watching a version of Alice in Wonderland..

Filmed with all real people.. Like Whoopi Goldberg.. [As the cheshire cat..]

And anyways, I noticed that Alice is so dumb it's unrealistic..

And although I love the story/book/Disney film..

I can't help but think we're sending the wrong message to our children..

[Not like I have any, but still..]

Firstly, she is ALWAYS eating.. Non-stop!

She just picks things up and eats them..

Not knowing where they came from or what's in them..

For all she know they could be poisonous!

Second, she's ALWAYS eating..

She's the reason for childhood obesity..

Little children see her eating and nothing about her changing..

And they believe they can do it themselves..

Third, she listens to everyone and does whatever they say..

A white rabbit tells her to go to his house.. AND SHE DOES..

This is what our children are learning.. MADNESS!!

Teaching our children to talk things from strangers and pick things up in the street..

Tut tut.. Shame on you Alice..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl

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Update..

I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought I'd update you guys..

[Whether you like it or not..]

This week I've:

Started back at sixth form [college]

We now have to share our year room with the year 12's..

Which I wouldn't really mind.. But there's so many of them.. The sheer amount is overwhelming..

They think they own the school.. And I'm like 'Shut Up And Be Gone!' Them being around is just tedious..

I have a theme song for when they leave the year room.. 'Hit The Road Jack' by Ray Charles..

I do this while motioning with my hands for them to leave.. You really should see it..

I've also had a break-up.. [Followed by break-down..]

*Cue the tears* CryCryCry.. SobSobSob.. SniffleSniffleSniffle..

AND..

I'M OVER IT..

I had good friends around me to help and care for me..

And hey it's just one boy.. There are so many other boys [and girls] in the pond..

*GASP!* "Did she just say that..?!?!"

Also, I cut a fringe.. Yes, I have curly hair and I cut a fringe..

[Cue the *GASP!* "Did she just say that..?!?!"]

Yes I did cut a fringe.. Cause I wanted a change.. And I've done it now..

And I've done the I'm-Gonna-Worry-About-How-It-Looks-And-That-No-One-Will-Like-It thing..

And I've stressed over what people will think and say..

And now I don't care.. I like it.. It's new..

'New me, New start..'

[Quote taken directly from the ex.. Somehow I don't think this is what he meant.. Oh well..]

Final Thought:

Things will change whether you want them to or not.. Sometimes for good, sometimes for bad..

It's up to you how you handle these changes.. It will always be your decision..

Make it a good one..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl

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It's A Love/Hate Thing..

This is my new thing.. I'm gonna do one 'I Love' and one 'I Hate'..

I'm gonna do it ever now and then, when I feel like I have something to love and hate..

Here I go..

I Love..

People who are amazing and help me in serious times of need..

And when I'm down, are there to pick me up and dust me off..

Like AnnaLucinda [ Click it, you know you want too..]

I Hate..

People who use me..

E.g. to keep themselves busy, to plug their shows/YouTube accounts/ BLOGS..

There I go..

My first Love/Hate thing..

Peace..

JustSomeGirl

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Random Question.. 2

NUMBER DUEX!

If mud is dirt plus water, what is clay?

This one actually stumped me.. I stopped for about 2 and a half minutes trying to think..

I thought clay was stuff that kids [and myself from time to time] played with..

That colourful stuff.. Some kids eat it.. Dunno what that's about..

[Play-Doh]

Or maybe that other stuff.. The more 'adult' clay..

Y'know, the stuff that they make models and table wear out of..

['Adult' clay]

Clay is , I believe, thicker and denser than mud..

[Look at me sounding all smart and knowledgeable.. haha]

I guess..

Clay is dirt plus water..

Mud is dirt plus ALOT of water..

What's your answer..?

[Post in comments..]

Peace

JustSomeGirl

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All A Girl Needs..

Is a bag of Magic Stars and a good cry..

[That's what I think..]

I've got the Magic Stars.. Now I'm waiting for the cry..

I don't think that I could feel anymore down..

As a matter of fact if I was anymore down..

I'd be underground..

*Ba Dum Dum Chhhhh!*

And I don't think people could let me down anymore than they already do..

Now I'm not talking about everyone I know..

But a few.. A few key people just can't help but let me down..

But at least they do it in their own special way..

So as I don't get used to it, or even figure out what they're doing before it's too late..

Kudos for them for continuously pulling a wall over my eyes..

Final Thought[s]:

1. Are people in general just let downs or is it just the ones I know..?

2. Am I being too harsh..?

3. What do you do to make you feel better when you're down..?

Peace

JustSomeHurtGirl

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Day Without My Laptop..

Today has been bad, to say the least..

Let's start from the beginning, as that's a good place to start..

I decided to do a day without my laptop..

Just as Colin at 'I'm Bloginit!' suggested..

[You can see the post here..]

Now my day went a bit like this:

I woke up around early morning..

[Earlier than this picture states..]

I'd like to point out the way I was woken up added to the negativity of this day..

I was woken up by my phone [which was right beside my head] vibrating and blasting the beginning of 'Hello Hello' by Paramore..

Just listen to the opening 5 seconds..

Normally this wouldn't bother me.. But at 9 whatever on a Sunday morning.. It's a shocker, I can tell you that..

And it wasn't even an alarm or phone call.. It was a text from T-Mobile, saying I had no credit left..

After that displeasing awakening, I found out that the plans [that I had cancelled plans with other people for] were cancelled themselves..

Annoyed..? Yes.. I was very much annoyed.. But trying to make the best of a bad situation I decided to call around to see what others were doing..

So I called ..

Then I waited..

Watched T.V..

Pretended to do some work..

Waited some more..

Read a book.. [haha]

And waited some more..

*Excuse the pictures.. Not my best I'll admit..*

These were all failed attempts at trying to occupy my mind..

Wanna play a game..?

It's called 'Spot the Laptop'..

Go on then.. Find it..

*Clue*

It's black and rectangular..

. . .

Found it yet..

Under the bed..?

Yep! That's where I had to put it, so I wouldn't be tempted..

Throughout the day I noticed that I wasn't really thinking about it..

Whether that was because I couldn't see it or for another reason I don't know..

As they say 'Out of sight, out of mind', right..?

What I did notice is that I thought more..

Like not random thoughts, but deep and meaningful thoughts..

I don't know if this is a good or a bad thing, because of the way I'm feeling now.. [Shown in this blog..]

But I did more thinking.. And I feel like I've not got more understanding of certain things..

Anyways, I had planned to go out today to Notting Hill Carnival.. [A massive carnival that happens every year in London..]

If I had done this today, then there would have been no doubt in my mind that I wouldn't have delved deep into my brain and produced something meaningful..

I would have been quite content looking at the bright costumes..

Listening to the loud floats..

And eating the ethnic foods..

Being somewhat shallow..

Now I'm not saying that I'm enlightened.. Or that I've had an epiphany..

But I just feel like this break from my laptop..

[Something that would usually keep me from having the time to just think..]

Made me realise things, that I may not have otherwise realised..

Yeah, they may have been hurtful or confusing..

But, I guess, it's good to get stuff out.. Right..?

I'd advise anyone to try this.. Especially if they're as 'addicted' to their computer/laptop as I am..

[If you do try it.. Tell me how/what you done..]

Final Thought:

It wasn't hard to forget my laptop.. It was harder to escape my thoughts..

Peace

JustSomeGirl

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